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Saturday, April 12, 2008

I'm Back In Singapore

My time spent in Thailand over the past 2 months was priceless.

I have met many people.

Had tons of fun.

Even at the beach.

Was able to present my results to the company.

But there are times, we know that good things do not last forever.

I'm back in Singapore now. I miss everyone in BIOTEC, especially the staff of the Fermentation and Biochemical Engineering Laboratory. Things are really different now, but life still goes on. I want to end this post by thanking everyone whom I have met in Thailand, acquaintances and friends, for it was them who made everything memorable.

Thank you..

plants grow at 12:05 PM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Finally, A Post Since A Very Long Time

Hi all,

I have not been updating. Since my previous update, quite some things have changed. Some for the bad, but some for the better. Having my attachment at BIOTEC was a very new experience. The feeling of independent living was something new to adapt to. Nobody to do the daily housework, no family to look at.

"Zihao have you eaten lunch, want me to buy?" - Mom
"Zihao clean your table. Zihao clear your clothes." -Dad

Hell, I even missed the nagging.

Because of an unexpected event I returned to Singapore last Tuesday. Shall not reveal on my blog, but if you're a good friend you would know. This event, made me realise the importance of my family, and made me realise how painful it is to lose a loved one.

So during my stay in Singapore, I tried hard to get closer to my parents. Also, I tried to give more support to my Mom. I tried to spend more time to understand my Dad and accompany him. I find that in this short period of time, I have become more attached to home.

There's this thing that's holding me back, making me slightly reluctant to return to Thailand. I'm worried about home actually. Worried about Mom, worried about Dad's health. But I'm sure they'll be fine. Sad to say, but my presence will not always make a difference. I will continue OITP with a strong heart.

Sometimes I still think of her. But when I remember the fact that she has been released from her suffering, the misery is lifted.

plants grow at 12:58 AM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

27 October 2007

Finally it's time for a one week break, actually not really a break. This will probably be the most busy e-learning week I'll have in SP so far. My grades haven't really been that good, time to stop wasting time on meaningless activities and study more diligently.

OITP and the Overseas CIP to India have really been bugging me alot. I really want to go overseas this time, I'm still waiting for some lecturers to reply my email with more information about the other placements that do not have a description. I don't want to be doing something that I'm not interested in for 2 months overseas. But that's not all, I don't even know if I'll be able to work overseas. Afterall, my grades and achievements are not that good.

And the India thing, I'm also not sure if I'll be able to go for it. It's from the 14-29 December, but during that time I should be attending her Wedding Dinner. So I'm in quite a fix, I don't know what's right to do. I want to go to India because I think it's a rather enriching experience, and I've never done CIP overseas before. Very new experience, really don't wanna miss it. And my girlfriend is going to India too, if i can't go, I'll have to celebrate my birthday by myself.. =( But my sister's wedding is important too. It's the event of her lifetime and I really want to be able to make it. I can't miss this too...

Anyway school life has changed quite abit. The way things go are pretty different now, but I'm not angry. Change is a the only constant thing in life, and I will change such that I will not lose out.

There is this fog of distrust, maybe you all don't feel it, but I do, and I realise that I'm back to my old self, it's not so easy to trust anymore.

Lucky I have a girlfriend, I can trust her with everything. Even though things change, I know I am not alone.

plants grow at 3:01 PM

Friday, September 14, 2007

We have been tagged together!!

I've been tagged a few weeks back by ZheeSheen, was tagged as ShiLing/Zihao so I decided let ShiLing do the first half! She already done her part a few weeks back and I'm quite guilty cos' I haven't done my part. So here goes..!

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:

hmm.. let me think..

1. new nokia hp (hven thought of any model yet)

2. latest MP3 / IPOD

3. New clothes

4. 1 ferris wheel ride with ~you~

5. An oven? haha!

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you is?

>> sheen sheen! ^v^

2. Your relationship with her is:

>> one of my besties in class!! also my beloved lao gong/lao po ( whoever wear skirt that day will be lao po, haha!!! but we are straight k.. lol!)

3. Your 5 impressions of her:

>> sweet, caring & helpful, smart, humourous & lame at times (wahaha!) and friendly!

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?

>> i think will be explaining patiently the stuff i don't understand in lectures even though when i don't get it the first time, and many other stuffs.. Thanks alot!! ^v*

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?

>> those advices she gave me when i told her my troubles ba..

6. if she becomes your lover, you will?

>> ermm.. this qns is abit weird.. never thought of that before.. but well, i will shower her with all my love, care for her and be there for her always..

7. if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?

>> hmm.. i'm alright with her now, nothing much to improve though.. but well, if must write something, i guess i would like her to tell me her troubles so that we can solve it together..

8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?

>> haha, that thought has never cross my mind! how can?! hmm.. i think i will just leave her alone as i believe in retribution..

9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?

>> err...... i don't know.. backstab or betrayed me?? but i believe that will not happen la! cant imagine such things will happen..

10. the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?

>> erm.. i guess is i hope that her parents will approve her relationship & he wil recover soon.. though i cant help much but thats wat i hope for her currently.. hee..

11. your overall impression of him/her is?

>> she has been a great friend to me, as well as zihao! she will help you with all her best when you need help and will console and give you advice when you are feeling down.. oh ya! she can sure imitate ah seng, mr whey, dr E etc, very well!! i will always be laughing like hell whenever she does such things!! hahaha!! will i have more of this imitate-teacher-thing this sem? haiz.. still sad about splitting class thing.. but our friendship stil remains k! =)

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?

Ok Zihao now. I think the people around me (my classmates, DBT) live in constant fear of my unstable temper and irratic behaviour. Well as for my buddies I think they have fun around me. Despite my badass attitude to the people around me, I hope people don't have a misunderstanding that I very mean to ShiLing ok? In fact, I am so nice to her that you will start to believe that I am a really weird person with very different sides. So you want me to be nice to you?

13. the character you love of yourself is?

I duno, actually. I don't really know what's good of my personality. I don't smoke, I don't drink, don't gamble. Perhaps this is my best traits. Just a thought, I find that I am quite capable of influencing the people around me, perhaps I am a natural leader!

14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

Oh, what I hate huh. I don't really like the fact that I don't tolerate bad table manners *nudge* Okay actually I find that I always like to be in control of the events and situations that happen around me. When things do not go the way I want it to go, I tend to lose it and people around me start to avoid me. Am I really that scary?

15. the most ideal person you want to be is?

The most ideal person? I want to be someone with confidence, awesome talents, and versatility. I have a few people in mind, but I don't really feel like sharing it.

16. for people that care and like you, say something to them.

Say... Thanks for the care and concern. Always feel free to talk to me when you're in need of someone to talk to, I will make time for you and I will not abandon you in your moments of need.

17. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Andi
2. Alicia
3. Michelle
4. Chelsea (I know you've done it, just join the list alright?)
5. YanMing
6. Cass
7. Qing Rui
8. John Goh
9. John Goh
10. John Goh

Alright I picked 10 people!! Time to answer some questions

Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Ahh.. Cass has a boyfriend called Dale!

Is no.9 a male or female?
Male, definitely. Perhaps he can be a male ghost.

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
No, it's quite horrible, I'm not too accepting with gays.

How bout no.8 and 5?
More gays -_-

What is no.2 studying about?
Err, some engineering course, i think. Sorry Alicia, your course name is really very long.

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
I haven't chat with Michelle for a really long time..

What kind of music band does no.8 like?
John likes quite a broad range of music. As long as the rhythm and tune appeals to him then he'll probably like it.

Does no.1 has any siblings ?
I think Andi has a sister and a brother? I can't really remember. I think he has quite a family.

Will you woo no.3 ?
Err.. No, I'm already attached!

How about no.7 ?
This is quite irritating, I'm not gay as well.

What is the surname of no.5?
Loh.

What is the nickname of no.10?
John is usually just John. You don't give people with short names nicknames.

What is the hobby of no.4?
I think Chelsea likes to dance.

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
YanMing and John do not know each other. Even if they do, I don't think they'll be close friends.

Where is no.2 studying at?
Temasek Polytechnic!

Talk something casually about no.1?
Andi huh. I haven't talked with Andi for quite awhile already. For a few times he stayed over at my place then we watched movies and ate pizza at the same time. Played some games. Basically had fun. Quite a nice guy, but sometimes abit blunt with words. But I'm ok with it!

Where does no.9 live at?
John lives at Bedok South.

What color does no.4 like?
Wow, this is really hard. Pink? Black?

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Andi and YanMing do not know each other.

Does no.7 likes no.2?
Yet again, they don't know each other.

How do you get to know no.2?
Alicia, I started talking with her in Sec3.

Does no.1 have any pets?
I don't think Andi likes animals much..

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Yeah..!!! Just joking xD

Ok I'm not sure if I was supposed to copy down the questions regarding the friends. Anyways I'm done with the post.
Anyway to the people that are tagged. Go ahead and don't continue it. Nobody continues my tags, it always happens. Go ahead and laugh at me because nobody likes to continue my tag. Piece of shits.

plants grow at 5:34 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007

10th August 2007

I haven't been blogging for really long. Upon looking at me link in other people's blog, you must be like "Ohhh, not updated, don't waste time". But fret not, an update is here!

Quite alot of things happened since the last time I blogged, really. But if I'm going to blog it all, you'd probably start to fear alphabets! So, I shall just whine about the down-side of recent life. Sad....? Too bad then. 1 person complaining is enough.

Dad's health has been improving, the past 3 weeks wasn't so great for him. His health took a downturn 2-3 weeks ago. Came down with a fever that lasted for 4 days... Hey wait, if you're going to tell me "fever is normal...!", then I will shove my foot down your throat the moment you open your mouth. Initially we were afraid that he caught dengue fever, the East is quite a hotspot, which also meant that the family was at a risk. Fortunately it was something else. On a Friday my Dad told me he had urinary retention, urinary problems alright? So I got quite worried and advised him to see the GP again.

Dad came back with some potassium citrate, some medication that should help. But it really wasn't getting any better, so the next day we brought him to TTSH. Dad was diagnosed of urinary tract infection, which accounts for the fever, and prostate gland hyperplasia. Ohmygoodness. Not bragging, but i knew what was going on, and I feared it might turn for the worse.

After a few days under medication, Dad felt better. But Mom won't let him play pickleball, but he wanted some exercise. Like always Dad came to me "Zihao you think i should play? Later at some very sian.." So he succeeded in gaining my sympathy... So he played on...

But Dad plays twice a week, Mondays and Fridays. On Friday I was taking a shower at 7+pm. When he was asking if I was taking a shower, I realised he came home. "Zihao, Dad got injured..." so I started panicking and washed up. As I opened the toilet door I saw my bloody Dad, yes literally bloody. AND A SWOLLEN CHEEK AS BIG AS A LYCHEE.!!! Yeah, a lychee, I... couldn't think of a better word.

I immediately freaked out, who wouldn't? Dad got a cut above his eye, his eyelid actually. It was bleeding quite badly. See? This explains the bloody Dad huh. Following his instructions, I ran off to boil 2 eggs for the swelling and some antiseptic. So what happened was, as Dad was stretching, as usual, to save his ball, somehow his leg gave way and he fell, and his spectacles broke and cut into his eyelid. Afterwards, his friends came to help him to wipe off the blood and asked him to go downstairs of the CC. But why couldn't they go downstairs and grab a First-Aid Kit? Strange.

I must say, Dad's pretty cool at times. After he wiped off the dripping blood. He cycled home. What the.. He's injured, and he cycled home?? He refused to go to the hospital, but I managed to persuade him the next morning. So we went to CGH. In just 2 weeks, we went to the hospital twice.

Dad's fine now, but I'm not. When he's bored at home, he sits in front of the laptop editing his pictures. I understand the older generation have a problem using computers, I try to help him patiently. But things get worse when he asks "Zihao you to learn how to take pictures of fireworks with my camera?" Yes, Dad's into photography, but unfortunately I'm not. Sometimes when he's figuring out how to use his camera functions, he'll ask me for help. "Zihao, why the camera bulb...." I don't understand a single word of what he said later. His Canon 350D's bulb chickendonkeyhorseshoerabbittable... Damn! I don't understand anything! See, that's why too much knowledge is bad! Not to the knowledgable person, but the people around!

Yeah, talk about knowledge, I need to study. Adios.

plants grow at 8:05 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Noo.. Been tagged..

Bloody hell, Chels told me on msn that I've been tagged. So, for those people who've been bored with my blog. Here's something to read.

These are the rules:Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 wierd things abt themselves. Pple who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 wierd things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, u need to choose 6 pple to be tagged and list their names.After u do that, leave them each a comment letting them know u tagged them and to read ur blog!

Yay. 6 weird things. Gonna have to crack my skull. I'm really not weird.

1. I'm gonna remove half the moles on my face when I get the chance.
2. I can't swallow pills, I chew on panadol. Very sad.
3. I think people with hairy asses are abit weird.
4. I don't sleep during boring classes. I just can't fall asleep. I think this is quite weird, it's like not being able to sleep when you want to.
5. I don't check out other hotties as much as guys usually do. Andi once said I'm gay.
6. Come on, there's really nothing else. Oh here's something weird. I don't know who I'm gonna tag after I finish this!

I'm gonna tag :
JohnGoh
Cass
QingRui
Andi
Errr...
....
....
I give up.

plants grow at 2:17 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

A New Beginning

Today, I woke up a different person. Last night seemed more like a dream. But now, I'm sure I don't live a life alone anymore. Not with an angel beside me.

plants grow at 11:58 AM